Today will forever go down in history for my life. So did yesterday.
My question is “what did I do with the day which will make a difference in some one’s life?”
I never want it said I wasted my life. Daily I look at my life and wonder what I could have said, done, or experienced which would make not only my own life more full, but make a difference in someone’s life.
Yes, I am one of those insecure people who feel inadequate. Even though I have been blessed to do and see mighty things (which I won’t brag about here) which others will never do, I still feel like I have let ‘someone’ down.
Yes, I know my place in the Kingdom of God, who I am in Christ Jesus, but insecurity seems to sneak in some days. As I sit here today, I think back on yesterday.
1. I had a great live broadcast around 1:30 pm on Ad4j Radio Network which I felt the Holy Spirit really move.
2. Last night was awesome watching young people receive awards and experience their love and concern that I was having a good time! Awesome kids!
3. Last night I slept like a baby with my wife of 30 years. It was a good peaceful/restful sleep.
4. This morning, I am reading Hosea; Chapters 9 and 10 and prayerfully considering what the prophet is saying. Is he trying to warn our nation and society today about our wicked ways?
So why do I feel so insecure and inadequate in my ministry? Is it that scheduling of seminars and revivals are not as plentiful as I would like to see? Am I expecting, and in a hurry to get out to do God’s will for my life because I know as a person near 60 years of age, I don’t have long to see God work in both my and others’ lives?
Am I the only one who feels the urgency to do more for God? I know I’m not the only human being to feel the urgency to experience more of the Holy Spirit and of God the Father.
I also know I am not the only person to wonder…”What will this day mean in the history of my life? Will it be productive or a wasted day?”
When I transition from this life to eternity, I want people to remember and know of my Christian example in this life. Know that God worked through me. Not to pin medals on my chest, but to bring a newness of life and closeness in other people’s walk with the Lord. I want to be one who didn’t waste this day in the history of my life.